God is my everything- I cannot go about my life being inherently impatient, rude, and insensitive; I need to- as spoken in His word- live my life with the love of Christ. That, accordingly, means being slow to speak and slow to anger, quick to sympathize and relate with the emotions and thoughts of my fellow believers and friends. That means being completely humble, seeking to help others out of sheer compassion, rather than boasting in my knowledge or for personal gain. Compassion. That word is so deeply intertwined with my God- my Christ Jesus, whom willingly gave His life in the most gruesome, pain-filled way.
I cannot comprehend what it looks like, or even means, to live a life filled with this type of compassion. One that looks only to the interests of others, and one that never ceases to lend a hand, while speaking words of encouragement and an ear to listen through complete humility- this is not me at all. It should be, but it is not.
Likewise, the phrase "bearing with one another" urges me powerfully, warning me to surrender my entire being to His name and act of love. I've done nothing, and so I deserve nothing (thank you, Redeemer Summer Camp). Because of this very phrase, I have the obligation to legitimately go and bear with the unbearable, painlessly adhering to the hardships within these said relationships- this is my guaranteed work here on earth. Nothing less is expected of me.
Christ didn't set a limit on how much He would love others or how many times He would heal; He didn't grant compassion to those who easily obeyed and respected His teaching. He loved all. He bore with every man and woman and child, regardless of their actions or motives towards Him. He freely listened, helped, served, healed, and forgave, not asking for anything in return.
Every word He spoke, action He committed, and step He took, He remained meek. It's clearly impossible to imagine myself being any sort of "meek," achieving any sort of progressive modifications within this life alone. Literally not attainable. This, without Christ, is entirely accurate: I am nothing and can do nothing apart from Christ. Only He can enable me to be kind, meek, humble, compassionate, forgiving, and all around filled with love when I ask it of Him.
It's not easy- though, when I am obeying His word, following His teachings and commands, that is when I will begin (key word, BEGIN) to grow. It's a process. He is there. It can happen. It will.
Somehow beginning this process by first attempting to obtain this mindset (Col. 4:6):
"Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person."
Much love & sparkles,
Much love & sparkles,